The pedicab will be here in two hours. I actually did get the bulk of my packing done after my last video. Mom and I will be traveling together up until Tapeii. It's been drizzling in the Philippines all night and morning. I find that kind of symbolic. It reflects my inner mood. I will miss being here with Mom. The peace. The quiet. But I won't miss the poverty, weird Internet, and intermittent power outages.
I want what I've had here over there. And it's important to remember that life is not an either/or type situation. These last ten months have been a real shift for me. I've given myself permission to be me. Now it's time to be me. The me I've been waiting my whole life to become. I'll let myself sound pretentious or even stupid or nonsensical, but I know what I'm talking about.
Somewhere along the way, I am grateful I lost the energy and ability to be what I thought I should be and just accepted where I am. I've escaped the once-I-do-this-then-I-can-be-that thinking. I've escaped the idea--that sort of bionic syndrome--of having to be faster, bigger, better. Now, I get to continue living the dream.
Howdy world. Nice to see you again. I'm on my way.
here's hoping you have safe travels.
you are on your way. i think life is what we make it to be. i am glad i could share i some part of your journey and in your continued journey of life.
Posted by: Suzette | February 11, 2008 at 06:29 AM
Hey Christy,
I just now found you and am THRILLED to have you back and WITH VIDEOS! Will love keeping up with you in the US now too. Take care and all the luck in the world in your new Perfect DreamLife now.
Hugs and more hugs,
Lynda
Posted by: Lynda | February 11, 2008 at 11:12 AM
You're going to be amazing, Christy. Simple.
Posted by: Jason | February 24, 2008 at 06:55 PM